be small enough

Grueling day. It felt like mum was everywhere, so was mention of her 17 year olds who were out of the house. I absentmindedly accepted friendship requests on facebook from people I didn't know an opened myself up to some mean emails. And then got a "supportive" one from Lucy that felt back-handed and cold. Eating very little today felt like an accomplishment. So did not crying in front of the kids. Going to the church for a full run-through pudding rehearsal till 10. Medford habits die hard.